Friday August 22nd I moved into the college of my choice with my best friend and everything was all well and good. I’m very happy with our dorm room and the people i’ve met so far. Today was my first day of classes..right now i’m waiting for my second and last class of the day. This morning at 8AM I had a Financial Accounting class and it was so. fucking. intimidating. There’s some upperclassmen in my class such as sophomores and even a junior. Let it be known that I know absolutely nothing about business (my major is Marketing but hey, i’m a freshmen.) These kids knew so much about business it was insane. I felt so intimidated. How am I supposed to participate or anything? Especially for a girl whose biggest fear in these situations is ever looking stupid. This transition is hard. It’s hard as shit. My roommate (Hi Gabrielle) has way more classes then me so is out and about while I wait for my super s p r e a d out classes. I feel fucking helpless. I feel so helpless. I’m not at home like I have been for fucking 18 years, I have no car, I don’t know the area, etc etc etc. It’s just really hard especially when I have time to sit in my room alone and think about it. Maybe i’m just being dumb.. it is only the first class day. I just needed to vent since everyone I just called friend and family-wise didn’t pick up the phone. Maybe because it’s only 11AM.
I feel stupid.